Adrenaline Junkie

Philip says I do  not know how to relax and maybe his right, I do not know just how to spend time with myself and reflect on where I am what I have done so far and where I am going.

I really did not figure out what he was talking about until recently when I took a leave of absence from work  for a few days. I felt stressed and  just needed to get out of the office for a while and play an observatory role over my life recently.

Interestingly I ended up in the office for three consecutive days, it didn’t hit home really until one of my colleagues told be that I should just leave the office and GO HOME!!

Honestly speaking over the last two years I do not remember a time when I was not working or thinking about work.

Either I was working on a piece, typing it out, looking for people to interview, looking for new angles to do common stories, doing a follow up story or even bouncing off ideas with someone else. Even when I was meant to be resting I would be too eager to wait for the phone to ring and would gladly go to work when I was bored with staying at home.

An Adrenaline Junkie actually is what Philip says I have become running basically on the thrill of the job  even when am fatigued and tired and I should be home, resting.

So this time around  I  decided to come home for the holiday, but my elder sister and younger brother are quite unpleased with me , I have kind of  been hogging the remote focusing on news channels and trying  to analyse  how the various news stories have been treated and angles they have picked.

In retrospect, I wonder when I became a workaholic ? So am taking this time to relearn what the word  rest means.

It’s a very competitive world and more often than not we end up  being  sucked into the pressures of being the best , being  on your toes , ahead of  the competition. Trying so hard to make ends meet for ourselves and families, not closely looking at the costs at stake.

The family dinner that we forget to attend because we were working late, the christening that you miss because of that all important project that is due on Monday.

But it is just not the big events, the small  things too when your baby learns to say those first words, MAMA and take those first steps at the bottom line it is these moments that you miss that will haunt you no matter how much food  you bring to the table or how much money you make for vacations you will not get back that moment.

The temptation of looking better to your employer, your investors, your clients might be  so strong that you say yourself there will always  be  another time to spend with your family and friends.

There will always be another  job, project or client to take on, they will just keep piling up one after another and you have to decide what you are going to do.

That is not true at all, Life is too short for you to be spending it all frustrated by your daily hustles.it does not cost much to sit back and laugh through past mistakes and the good times.

Actually it is kind of refreshing, you get back to work with a clear head and a few laughs and memories to boost your heart.

For me, it is always nice to know that I am not alone : that I have family who have my back even when am out of a job!!